Time, work, design, brain, overload

Tired
New
Out of place

I've transformed
grown and developed

I'm attached to my computer
to the internet,
emails,
stupid Facebook

I work hard on my projects
but I spend the majority of my time
just sitting in front of my computer
surfing, just surfing, repeating,
read
browse
it's not non-sese but it's not my project!

I love the projects
but I'm draining myself
I heard that if you're going to be any good at what you do
you have to be obsessed

So I am,
but it's also dangerous

Because you get absorbed
Lose sense of other atmospheres

I have so many things to do
all at once
think, design, execute, quantity, quick, fast, produce

I feel like a machine!

Why can I not have more TIME to develop each assignment?
I can't question
need to just do what everyone has to do

Maybe I just don't know how to manage my time
I could be wasting too much of it
Even with not going out or doing anything with any spare time

It's been a month in

I hate to feel like this
feeling like I'm always behind
even when I work hard

It wasn't like this
I used to work hard but do it because I had a lot of time
That way it felt better
I wasn't in a rush
I had my time to breathe, think, SKETCH, then do

I have not been asked to SKETCH anything here
I have an issue with that

Graphic design has transformed
it's become a need for speed and aesthetics
getting the job done
is good?

Please,
I'm in school;
School me!

Full course load (at Ringling) is overload

Florida is nice but my eyes would feel nicer with covers